I have an issue.
well, actually I have many issues. lol. everyone does. leave me alone.
One of the reasons why I’m so doggedly self-reliant, self-propelled, and self selfish is because…
I don’t like asking for help.
I’ve always figured that it’s much easier to get it for yourself, with no help, than to do things alongside and with the help of others.
My rationale: You don’t have to share credit. You don’t have to answer, wait, or be accountable to anyone else. I guess there is a freedom there. And most importantly, you don’t have to be let down if you do it this way. I don’t depend on people, because generally I don’t think they have my best interest. The main reason, however, is because I don’ t believe I am worthy of it.
Damn that was truthful.
But, That’s probably not the best way to go about things. I leave a lot on the table. I don’t take advantage of even small things, (i.e. frequent flyer miles, free help, etc etc) again because of this self-sufficiency. There’s probably a gang of people who would love to see me advance, and have reached out to me in various ways, but yet and still I think there’s more nobility in getting it done allll by yourself.
Well, that has changed. I’m changing my position.
By watching my friends’ brobro pick up chicks, I’ve discovered something. The infinite power of asking.
Very simple. He’d talk to a girl and at the end have a simple proposition.
“I would like to have your phone number.”
And most of the time, he got it. And if not, it’s not the end of the world. On to the next venture. But as in the words of Jordan “you miss 100 percent of the shots you don’t take.”
I have a giant fear of rejection. There. I said it. I don’t like hearing no. But instead of being afraid of “no”, I need to create ways that will give me “yes.”
I want more things, and I want others to do things for me as well. I should be able to ask for these things. I don’t think I should be afraid to ask for what I want, or to make it be known. So if you see me and I ask you for something wild, crazy, and/or audacious, know it’s for a good purpose.
From now on, I will be asking myself, the universe, and those around me for more. More stuff. More less stuff. We want more.